I’ve shared parts of my life quite openly here for the last couple of weeks.
Chapters have been closing and for a while there it felt like no new doors were opening.
Until this week.
An opportunity has come my way that I have been really blessed with.
An exciting role with a learning & development organisation which doubles as a charity has, quite honestly, landed in my lap. The flow of the situation has astounded me. One interview last week and another this week with a hiring on the spot. That rarely happens (which means I know it’s right).
This is not a full time opportunity – I have made it very clear to the universe that I will not compromise my business by working full time. And it has delivered.
But you should hear some of the banter that’s now going on inside this little head of mine, even though the above is essentially true;
“Noooooo, your dream is now going to take even longer”
“You honestly think you’ve got what it takes to do both?”
“You are rapidly going to lose the identity you’ve worked so hard to create.”
“What will those who follow you think? You’re defecting, aren’t you?”
Lord have mercy – can I just shut up for one minute? Please.
Ego. I know you mean well, but…
One of the learnings on this journey of transition has been telling the difference between head and heart. Knowing what is essentially ‘right’ for me and what is just ‘noise’.
All of the head screw stuff above is exactly that – a head screw.
It’s not what my heart is saying.
And how do I know?
Because of the expansive feeling in my body when I was offered the role, because of the warmth that I felt when I walked into my new office, because of the feeling of being at home when I sat down with my potentially new colleagues.
It was as though it was already written.
And if I outsmart my head with reframing all of those little fears above, I can gently sway her to my heart’s way of thinking with this;
“Dreams take a little time sometimes, and that’s a ok. Perhaps with less time, I’ll be all the more determined.”
“You know a lot more then you did 4 short years ago. Have faith and hope you’re strong enough to do both.”
“Your identity may indeed be called into question but you know as well as anyone – there is good and bad to every single situation.”
“Those who are coming along for the ride realise this is one of the important lessons to reveal itself on the road to realising your dreams.”
And there you have it.
Ego, are you in check now? Good, I thought so.
Got a way to determine what’s really your head and really your heart speaking? Let us know in the comments below. We’d love to hear from you.
With love, as always
Lynda
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